inspired by the old me

this sound weird but i am actually inspired by my old self to blog more often..
i talk about changes so often in my old blog..but now i realized why force myself?
i will just go with the flow..do what i feel is right at that moment..isn't that just less stressful

and the so called real world..i have took a glimpse in it and i don't like it =(
even my own family members have politics that i do not wish it is real @@

is it the reason i felt that way is cause i m " the peacemaker " like what the personality test says?

Past Blogposts

suddenly had the urge to click my old blog's old posts..i started reading from the very 1st post..
and OH MY GOD..
did those posts bring back memories..
even the date of it made me go wow

MEMORIES of everyone who appeared in my life during secondary school life..
MEMORIES of my silly thoughts back then..
MEMORIES of how silly and funny the old me is..hahaha
MEMORIES of the people i loved =)

and i thought about now..what do i have left?
and realised that what i do not cherish now shall be a regret in the future..
but i am just No One
how can i know in time what to cherish and what is it that i will regret..
i do not have the proper mindset and intelligence to think about that

i am having the crying feeling inside me right now

signing off at 2.20am 28/1/2012

My Sem Break ( 3-1-2012 til now )

3/1/2012
just finished my final paper on that day and went out for dinner with the Goh gang (uni friends) place in kajang..and stayed there for the night..somehow its kinda boring as I just went there to use laptop..lol

4/1/2012
went back PJ with dad which came in the afternoon

5/1/2012
went out with 3 uni friends to sunway pyramid and bought new year cloths..

6/1/2012 - 13/1/2012
not much happened during this whole period of time as somehow i got a fever which made my week so difficult..for the 1st time a fever is that suffering for me =/
recovery period..stucked at home for recovery @@

14/1/2012
went pickup in usj 12..not many people turned up that day..played alot..enjoyed it =)
went back melacca to bring back some cny stuff first..plus cz too long no go back see grandma

15/1/2012
go back PJ from melacca..back abt dinner time

16/1/2012 - 17/1/2012
clean up the house alone =( try to make my mum happier by doing more also..because going out the next few days

18/1/2012
went out with zan hong and jia ler to buy new year cloths..bought a jeans for cny..teman them from morning til night..had pan mee breakfast at 10 something in OUG..thanks jialer for fetching me and zanhong frm zanhong's house..haha..jian shen joining after that..makan carl's jr for lunch at abt 4pm..lol..its fun in the end..haha =)

19/1/2012
went out with the mian, crystal, ning xin, yeong yih, jian shen, yao jie and hock eu a.k.a zoo gang..they all went broga hill for hiking that morning which i and crystal didn't join due to parents issue..one long long day as well..and it looks so much like a food outing and everyone's so tired cz they woke up so early..but i dun mind that..but i still missed that part..so sadddd..i really wanted to go =( ergh..watched the movie journey 2..hmmmmm..its okay to watch but then its too fake in a way..haha

20/1/2012
went sing k with kai boon and gang..

sorry..will update real soon..if u r reading this..i m going to Sekinchan(2 hours drive from my place D= )  for lunch wit elder bro's gf de family..haha..paiseh

Life's fragile

For the past week,
i noticed one's life is so fragile..one simple fever (viral fever to be exact) can ruin my holidays..its been 4 days now..so sad =(
i haven't even went exercise since my finals..then now sick cannot go out some more..super sad =((

so..while you are still healthy and young,
do something, take your chances and live to your fullest..

p/s: that something can be anything..just don't say it's lifeless at home ( a note to myself )

The New Year 2012

Happy New Year everyone! =) its 2012 already
like someone said, going to be twenty d..no more teen years =/
good thing? bad thing?

let's see what i recall about my whole 2011,

let's say its been both tough and plain year..

hmm..well..let's just be honest for this post..

relationship
well..i had 2 breakups in the year 2010 before (call me a jerk for that)
so basically 2011 is like picking myself up and try to move on..
but it FAILED badly anyways
feelings, regrets, thoughts about those relationships just cant stop haunting me..yes..i am that weak and stupid
but now it's getting lesser of course..time does really heal wounds..don't they?
and honestly..i m scared to love again at the moment..i don't want to hurt both myself and another girl's heart again -.- but who knows? and i shall just stop talking about something that i am bad at

academic
my results did had a great fall too..couldn't blame anyone else but me for that =/
and degree first year first semester now didn't go so well as well

my 6 months break in the middle of this year..erm..worked in TTC as part time receptionist..okay..i didn't profit a lot as i was using about the amount/more than what i have been earning..

but one thing that really keep me occupied during this later half of the year 2011..

Sports
Ultimate Frisbee..can't deny that i really starting to fall for this sport..
i never had imagined this but it truly did..
slowly stepping out of my comfort zones is what i have did a few times durthis period of time..
the biggest turning point is the trip to Penang Hat 2011
really an eye-opener and i fall for Ultimate even more =)

okay..i cant think of any aspect else to write..gah..i am such a bad blogger

so my resolution for my year 2012 :
main one is to lighten up my life and of course a better one compared to 2011

at the moment don't have any inspiration to blog

til then, signing off at 4.08am 04/01/2012

Yi Shiuan